My little miracle, Emma, is 4 months old. Today she had to have some tests done on her kidneys and bladder because she keeps getting UTIs. She was born 6 weeks early and spent 2 weeks in NICU, and she spent some time in the hospital in September due to a UTI. I'm just so tired of hospitals and tests, my little sweety has been through enough, and she goes through it with so little fussing and the sweetest smile. I just wonder if it is because of the preeclampsia because it focused itself on my kidneys.
I think that it is most likely due to prematurity, but this whole preeclampsia nightmare, I just can't seem to get over it. I keep thinking things like, I can't have any more babies, this is the last baby I will ever hold that will be mine, etc. We almost lost our lives in May, and I am so grateful that we are here, and seeing and feeling God's hand trough the thing was nothing short of a miracle, but when will the bad stuff be over? Does anyone else feel like it was a horrible but beautiful experience that will forever haunt them?