I'm in northwest Alabama. My daughter was two in March. I delivered her at full term. I went in the hospital the night before I was to be induced (the night she was due). I was told my platelets were too low for an epidureal...I would be delivering natural (not what I wanted to hear since I hadn't even attended a birthing class). That is all I knew....I didn't know the doctor had told my parents and in-laws that I was suffering from HELLPS and that I was critical to start praying. It's better I didn't. I remember while holding my darling that I heard "platelet transfusion" and "ICU". I knew then that this couldn't be good. Thankfully, due to wonderful nurses and doctors and mostly God's grace I would be okay with a healthy daughter. I am currently considering baby #2 but am TERRIFIED! One day I'm all ready to consider trying and the next I'm worried about my life, my 2 year old not having a mom around, and a premature baby that had to be delivered early for my health (you know all the what ifs). I'm not too anxious for a 2nd one right yet, but possibly trying next year if I can get over my fears. I just wanted to introduce myself to the group. I'm glad I found you. No one knows what the fear is like unless they lived it.