I Have Watched My Only Two Children Die

Post On Tuesday, May 01, 2018 By Cheyenna Osborne

I Have Watched My Only Two Children Die

To the women who told me I was to young to be a mom.

I was 18 years old when I found out I was pregnant with my son. Yes that`s young, but I was going to make it work. What you didnt know... carrying my son almost literally killed me.

If I wasn't found in the garage that day, I would be dead.

I delivered my son at 26 weeks and 1 day due to eclampsia. He was 1 pound and 4 ounces. At 19 years old I had to sign my first DNR. I had to give my 7 day old son`s doctor permission to not do CPR. He died that day.

Snapchat-564107545croppedTwo years later, on the morning of my sons memorial photoshoot I took a pregnancy test. It was positive. At 20 years old I thought i would get my rainbow baby.

I started having complications at 17 weeks and delivered my daughter at 24 weeks and 6 days due to preeclampsia and my babies low heart rate. She was 1 pound and .01 ounces.

I worked so hard to stay pregnant with her and followed every little rule! When my daughter was born there were many good days and only a few bad days. But sadly, on day 25 I had to put my signature on yet another DNR, there was nothing more the doctors could do for my little girl.

20180413 150241CroppedI never thought it would happen to me, let alone twice! So at the age of 21 you may think I`m to young to be a mom.  But let me ask you, at my age did you have to sign two DNR`s for your only two babies? Did you have to hold your child as he took his last breath, only to see the man you love the most have to hold his little girl as she took her last breath two years later?

I have watched my only two children die. I`ve had to plan funerals and pick out headstones. 21 might be "to young" to be a mom, but its also to young to be told that I`m not able to have anymore children of my own without the same outcome.

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