Fight to Survive

Post On Friday, June 22, 2018 By Michelle Gray

Fight to Survive

I went for a routine OB check up on May 25, 2018. At my previous appointment my protein level in my urine was slightly elevated, as was my blood pressure (BP). I didn't think of it as anything serious , as I had recently been under some stress, although I had noticed I had lots of swelling from my head to my toes, excessive tiredness, very short of breath all the time, etc.

This was my 4th pregnancy, I've never had ANY bit of complications and my other 3 were full term healthy babies. I knew these symptoms were a "different" feeling. At my check up that day on May 25th and my BP was again "through the roof" as they called it, and the doctor admitted me into the hospital for 24 hour evaluation to make sure it wasn't preeclampsia.

At the hospital, they drew some labs and within 10 minutes a whole team of doctors and nurses came in saying I had severe preclampsia and a helicopter was on the way to transfer me an hour away to the University hospital where they could properly care for myself and the baby's needs since they would need to take her early.

I was 33 weeks and 2 days at this point. My BP was 228/132 when they hooked my IV's up and pumped me with magnesium.

I was terrified. I'm young, I had never even heard of preeclampsia, I didn't know what was happening or what was going to happen, all I knew is it had to be serious since they were loading me on a helicopter. I'm scared of heights, actually terrified. I fought with them that I couldn't fly for nearly 20 minutes. I told them to unhook my IV's and I'd drive but they advised me of how serious my BP was at the moment. All I could think about was my little baby , so for her sake, my husband convinced me to get on that helicopter. 

At the university hospital they hooked me to several other machines, and monitored my vitals for days and kept magnesium running thru my IV to maintain my BP, even though it was still high. The high-risk doctors wanted to try to get me to 34 weeks gestation before taking the baby in hopes that her lungs would be ready. My C-section was scheduled for 4 days away (May 29,2018 on a Tuesday at 3pm

Monday night , May 28, I all the sudden got very short of breath. I freaked out. Regardless if I sit, stand or lay , I couldn't breath! I felt like I was suffocating. Once again a whole team of nurses and doctors rushed in and held oxygen over my face. I physically felt the feeling of slowly suffocating. The nurses wanted me to lay down but they couldn't understand that I COULD NOT, so I became agitated and my vitals dropped.

In an "out of body" like experience I began to rip out an IV. They got me to the bed and held my arms and kept the oxygen tight on me. I remember looking around the room where there were so many nurses and doctors, I felt smothered. I remember the nurse who was holding the oxygen on me saying "stay with me". I pried her hand off the mask just to tell her "I can't fight no more, please just save my baby" 

That's the last thing I remember. I woke up almost a day and a half later in ICU. Of course, I didn't know it was a day and a half later. I was on the ventilator so I was writing on a dry erase board to communicate and I wrote to my husband asking him if we were doing the c section today, and he said no they took her last night and she's absolutely beautiful. Then I wrote "where is she," and he told me she was in the NICU but was doing good. While trying to calm me and sedate me, they had given me a medication that could potentially cause the baby brain damage the dr told my husband. "Thank God she was ok."

I learned, they "lost me" twice in which they had to revive me by CPR and shock. The "suffocation" I was feeling was fluid building up on my lungs from the preeclampsia which was lowering my vitals quickly. My baby and my survival were a miracle! she spent 16 days in NICU and she's currently 3 wks old thriving greatly! I now have mild heart failure at 29 yo, and must take 4 pills a day for the rest of my life, and may need a defibulator due to the preeclampsia.

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Posted On Sunday, July 08, 2018 By Fahmida

Hi I was so frightened reading your story and so happy that both you and your little one are fine. I had preclampsia before and on my 2nd pregnancy and they are keeping an eye on me...currentely 22 weeks pregnant.. I hope that everything goes well for you.. 

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