6/12/22-6/13/22 was simultaneously the best and most terrifying days of my life. The doctors made the call that our little Miss Jocelyn would be joining the world 2 months early. The process was scary and long but she came into this world fast, my calm in the storm. Our doctors prepared us our whole pregnancy for high risks and I unfortunately was no stranger. Thankfully this time around I had a team of high risk doctors and nurses along with my specialty teams and genetics doctor who held me through this and never left me with questions or confusion. They had us, protected us. I was induced in the morning and within 5 minutes that baby girl wanted OUT. The room was crowded with doctors and nurses going every which way. Trying to stay as calm as possible I reminded myself we’ve done this before I can do this again. My nurses and husband stayed by me the entire time never letting go of my hands and pouring into me with affirmations and prayer. The chaos of the unknown began, I started to have problems and the minute she was born the room was silent. I will never forget it. All you could hear was the beeps from monitors. With every last bit of strength I had I screamed, “please tell me she’s ok!!!!” and within that second those lungs were screaming… she made it! My heart sank again when they rushed her away to the NICU while doctors stayed with me saving my life. The next 21 days we experienced some of the scariest and darkest moments we never saw coming. We both were praying for miracles. After 2 weeks I was finally discharged and the feeling of leaving your baby at the hospital is absolute heartache but I also had my big girl waiting for me at home who desperately needed her mommy back. My heart was truly split in half. The next week I did everything to get her healthy and out of the hospital. Everyday was a new challenge but we were determined. Bringing her home from the NICU was a day I will never ever forget. Severe Preeclampsia and HELLP brought so much fear and unknown into our lives but it did not steal our joy. By every miracle we are here, we are alive and so thankful.