On November 3, 2023, I gave birth to my first-born son, Ever Williams. My pregnancy was amazing. Ever was such a patient baby as I could feel his funny personality already developing in my womb. As Ever personality was developing, he, however, was not. At 20 weeks I was diagnosed with pre-eclampsia. My blood pressure was high and baby Ever wasn’t growing properly. I remained in the hospital after what was supposed to be a regular scheduled appointment. For two weeks Ever and I was under tight supervision during our time at the hospital. At first, Ever was doing fine, but after some time, sweet baby Ever was in distress and his sweet little heart would begin to beat irregularly.
 
At twenty-four weeks I was being prepared for a c-section. It was a very scary time. At first, everything seemed well, but after a while, the doctor’s troubles grew weary. Ever was not only tiny but he was breached…they couldn’t find him because he was so low. What was supposed to be a painless procedure turned into a very long procedure. I was sedated after the pain grew excruciating. I did not see Ever being placed in the NICU bed near me, but Ever’s dad assured me that all was well and our baby was cute with a head full of hair.
 
As my blood pressure was dangerously high, I was unable to see Ever right away but his dad and aunt were there to keep him company. The doctors kept me updated on Ever’s health periodically. Once my blood pressure numbers went down, I was able to see him. After 10 long hours of fighting for his life, Ever’s heart grew tired. I was transported back to see him and it was at that time where Ever and I took pictures together.
 
During my grieving stage, I created a foundation to help bereaved families cope with the loss of their babies while they are being cared for in the hospital. The Ever Foundation plans to prepare gift boxes for families in memory of their babies. While no gift can heal the hurt of losing a baby, we pray that the gift box truly helps mothers and fathers find some sort of peace as my family did when we received ours. No one should grieve alone.