On April 19th I screamed to Roy from the bathroom that we had 2 positive tests. On April 26th Planned Parenthood confirmed that we were about 5 weeks pregnant at the time. Our due date was set for Christmas. From there we continued our pregnancy with our obgyn and everything was perfect with miss Adaline our whole pregnancy other than throwing up constantly. I would wake up and if I didn’t have food in my stomach immediately Addy would make me throw up. The shower was her favorite place she always puffed up like a balloon and she was just always so calm for me in the shower.

She loved kicks but would never want to kick for her daddy she would go a mile a minute and as soon as he tried to feel she would go right back to resting. My blood pressure was great my entire pregnancy usually about 110/70 very normal for me. Around the beginning of October I started to notice I was seeing spots, had migraines, I couldn't walk two feet without getting shin splints, and I was so swollen I looked like a whale. I had pain in my upper right ribs but I thought it was adaline being active. So of course when we went to the obgyn on October 12th we filled them all in and explained my symptoms. And at the beginning of every appointment they would do my height, weight and blood pressure and I would also have to pee in a cup.

I spoke with my midwife and she said that my blood pressure was a little higher than normal but that they would check it at the end of my appointment. I told her all about all my symptoms and she said they also found protein in my urine that day. She then began to explain what preeclampsia was to Roy and I. Our midwife redid our blood pressure at the end of our appointment and said that it was still high so she would like me to meet with a doctor on staff that day. He said I was simply dehydrated that I wasn't peeing for that reason and said I was not swollen whatsoever. Roy and I both tried to explain to him that it was serious but he wouldn't listen and said they would do a 24-hour urine sample. I did the sample and returned it, I only put out 200 cc of urine when I had drank 64 oz of water and he said the concentration was almost 850 which for a normal person is around 200. He said to continue drinking water and they would keep a closer eye on me for the weeks to come.

On the night October 16th I had a terrible migraine yet again so I called the obgyn after hours and the doctor on staff told me to take ibuprofen with some caffeine. She said if it did not resolve by morning to call them and they would get me in as soon as possible. I woke up the morning of the 17th and of course it did not go away. I called the ob and they got me in for 11:30 am and did a fetal scan. She said Addy was being difficult and that they would send me to the hospital to receive steroid shots so if we delivered that week her lungs would be ready. Which of course confused me because we weren't due until December 26th.

When we got to the hospital I remember asking the nurse at the front desk if after my shots if we could do a tour of the birthing center because we had yet to do that along with both our baby showers, my maternity photos or even our breast feeding and birthing class. She said someone would take us when we were all done. We went to our room I changed and got a steroid shot in my butt and hooked Adaline up to another fetal monitor and she wasn’t moving as much as they wanted. A doctor came in and explained that I had severe preeclampsia and that we would be having an emergency c section to try and save my child and myself. They told my other half to call our families because there was a possibility that neither of us would make it through the surgery. Adaline Mae Crawford was stillborn at 2:47 pm on October 17th 2017 and was 14 inches long and weighed 2 lbs and 3 oz. Thankfully they saved my life but my daughters death could have been prevented if our obgyn took us seriously in the first place about my symptoms.